why do u always perceive me as someone i am not?
well, tt's becoz u dont understand me.
u never try to understand me.

don't point your finger at me for the way we communicate.
i am merely buliding rapport with u.
get it?!


QUIT gg ard, pretending to be so damn concerned abt me.

there's a certain extent i can tolerate.
but basically i find myself getting near the point whereby

I WANT OUT!

had a real weird dream last night man.
i actually dreamt of eileen!!

i mean its like weird as to how she appeared in my dream when we've not met for like almost 8yrs?

oh.. n there is this particular person X whom i often dream of often!
the best part is i will dream of X like 70% of the time when i want X to appear in my dream?
this is really amazing!

*pls note that X changes practically with every entry. don't assume it's always the same person.


the following highligted part is basically abt childhood stuff.
-->plain dry stuff.

dreams aside,
i was taking bus today and i saw one of my old old old friend's sister.
so old tt i cant even remember his name okay!
i just vaguely remember tt his name somehow has "wei" or "shao" in his name.

knew him since kindergarden and we used to take the same sch bus to kindergarden.
besides the 2 of us,
there was still this other guy whom i only remember as "hamburger".

ive got no idea why he was called hamburger..
but he certainly didnt look like 1.

so the 3 of us would always play the usual childhood card games.
u noe??
old maid? aladdin? happy family?

at tt time, i was known as 'cherry'.
coz my indian teacher always mispronounced my name as 'cherry'.

probably i shld have just stick to tt and be known as 'cherry' for the rest of my life.
hahahahaha!
i am just joking.

then the 2 of us went to the same pri sch.
cant remember how i became close to his sister.
but we wld always stop to tok.
though we didnt today.

i also cant remember how i became close to ana.
think it must have been becoz of binglin.

it's so interesting lar..
we were like soo~~ close man.
but when i joined her in ij,
we both pretended we din noe each other?

dont ask me why.
i don't know as well.

guess it cld have been better if we remained as gd friends..
at least pet wont always get bugged by me.
"what's EM ar?"

hahahaha..
still cant get over the 'EM' joke.


k.. enough abt old times.
had piano lesson this morning.

guess what?
i was in the room playing right,
n mrs ang was sitting on the floor just right outside the room, with her own copy of the score.
she said tt she cld hear my playing better and was like marking out my mistakes on the score.

recently, im starting to lose my interest for piano.
i hate to practise n practise the same bars over and over again.
think i can do a better job reproducing the score on paper than to play it.

still.
i will choose piano over studies.

decades down the road,
don't bother to ask me what im working as then.
coz im quite sure i will be a piano teacher by then.
tt's provided im still alive.

i dont mean to be a full time piano teacher once i finish my degree.
tt will probably be what i wanna be when:
1. i have my own kids [provided im married lar!]
2. im ard 40. [given tt im fated to be a lao chu nu.]

will be starting to take theory once again [after soooo long] soon.
prob in april ba.
by then, i will be pulling my hair over harmonising the pieces and trying to memorise the history stuff.

now.. it's more than enough for today.
S-L-E-E-P.

its not tt good stuff arent happening in our lives.
they just need to be magnify by XXXXXX times b4 we can actually see them.

and they require lots and lots of memory space.
that's why we cant be bothered to commit them to memory.

afterall, the same amount of memory space can be used to store lots and lots of bad stuff rather than just a good stuff.

this is gg to be a very lengthy entry.
as if tt's not bad enough, it will be a very rojak one.
so try to follow my trails of thoughts.
if not.. then that's too bad.


[[ part one ]]

was having breakfast with my family this morning at tpy.
so after the more like brunch,
i was supposed to meet agnes at 2.30pm.

finished the meal at ard 1.30pm.
and knowing agnes very well,
since i was in tpy,
i tot might as well take 231 and loop rd tpy just to pass by ij.
haven seen it since it has been rebulit.

it's been like yrs since ive been there,
so much so tt ive got to ask pet if i was to take the white plate or the green one.

anyway, ij is like soooooo~~~~ DAMN PRETTY NOW LAR!!!
no wonder they needed so much funds last time.

was telling pet tt being a convent girl is prob one of the greatest things tt happened in my life up till this time of my life.
i honestly am totally in love with it and of coz missed it like crazy.

then pet said tt gg to ij actually improved my eng.
which is really true.
no doubt abt tt.

but miss petrina then kindly pointed out tt i used to pronounce 'grape' as 'grab'.
-_-

did i?
frankly speaking,
we've known each other for donkey of yrs.
n she NEVER pointed tt out to me before??

moving on...


[[ part two ]]

though ive already like tuo yan shi jian,
i still ended up waiting for agnes at orchard.
she's really ultimate man!
but at least this time rd, she din make me wait til i feel like puking.

so we went ard shopping and bought stuff like bra, perfumes and eye shadows.

ive checked out the tangs vouchers.
they're valid for 2yrs and can be used during sales period!
great options for bdae presents.

talking abt bras,
i spotted this brand at taka called "princesse tam tam".
and i fancied this praticular model.

FREAK LEH!!!
HOW CAN A BRA BE SO NICE??!!
[at least to me]

but..
it comes with a hefty price tag of $139.90.

agnes suggested tt i ask for taka vouchers instead of tangs now.
but still...
i dun think i will se de buy such an ex bra even with the vouchers.

whatever it is,
im still deciding btw what vouchers i want.
my bdae wishlist shld be coming up soon.
actually 1 mth away.

saw zei and his gf at paragon.
din stop to talk though.

agnes says he's quite shuai.
she belongs to the same grp as pet.

the good news is he will be coming that day.
WITHOUT HIS GF!
so try ur seduction skills on him.
hahahahahaha!

moving on...


[[ part three ]]

idiotic me suggested tt we watch norbit.
the 9.35pm slot at cine was totally sold out.

so we decided to try the 9.45pm slot at lido.
and the threate was actually quite empty.

becoz of the stupid movie:

1. agnes had to forgo her cake.
2. we both had to take cab home.
3. this is the most impt part.
I SAW LPG.

WHAT THE FUCK LAR!!

agnes was the one who spotted him.
and i SWEAR tt the moment i saw him,
i IMMEDIATELY had a stomachache?

what wrong have i done to deserve the curse of the lpg?!!!!!!

freak leh!!
it's a known fact amg my close jc friends tt i 'LOVE' lpg to the core!

xf said: at least u 2 saw each other.. got other pple see him meh? haha.. fated la.. no shy la..

muay fan suggested tt i shld:
1. go bai bai at the cai sheng miao near my place in case he cursed my toto slip.
2. use pomelo leaves water to sprinkle on myself to ward off bad luck.
3. jump over the stove.

[she's indeed treating me like im a convict just released from the jail.]

becoz of the curse of the lpg,
i din quite enjoy the movie.

TOTALLY REGRETTED.
shld have just head home straight to bi zai nan.

and because of the curse of the lpg,
i feel damn not well.

that's how much i 'LOVE' him.

dont say im mean to make such comments abt him.
so what if im mean?
i don't give a fucking damn for a lpg.

moving on...


[[ part four ]]

coz ive yet to get over the curse,
i decided to eat watermelon at such hours.

i hope i dun get stomachache later and have to admitted to the hospital.

i once did when i ate bananas late at night.
that's well i dont like bananas now..

moving on...


[[ part five ]]

I BADLY NEED TO SCREAM LAR!!!!!!!!!!!!
I JUST NEED TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

was really tired on friday.
actally wanted to slp early.

but.. recently, im like quite addicted to playing com games.
n i mean those reall dumb games.
so dumb til i dun even wanna elaborate what type le.
hahaha..

i actually played til 2.30am last night?
w/o realising tt it was so late le.

this morning wake up, really look like panda and eyes felt as if ive cried thru the night.
super super super super tired.
and the best part is still have to go for tuition n solve so many maths qns.

anyway, i got an ang bao from the tutee's mum.
she's like super nice to me lar..

1. gave me alot of cny goodies.
2. drove me to my next tutee's place the other day.
3. volunteered to bring me to the dr.
4. gave me an ang bao which is alot more than expected.

went for lunch with bai baba.
just for fun, went to queue for toto.
hope will win man!

*pray super hard*
hahaha..

as for the rest of today,
of coz to catch up on my slp and to kan dian shi!

went on a cd albums spree today!!
damn shiok!

1. zhuan jiao's soundtrack

2. may day's Born to Love

3. xiao zhu's speshow
YES!! i bought the FOURTH version.
it's like my THIRD copy of SPESHOW already!!!
there better not be any more versions.

4. norah jones' Not Too Late
she's one of the few ang mo singers i like.
think her voice is real sexy and her songs just make me feel very at peace.

tt's abt all.
i still wanna buy the gary's album..

saw this watch today.
its a real beauty man!!
costing only $147.

any kind hearted souls out there???
or anyone who has too much ang bao to spare??

anyway, i dunnoe what shit zei has gotten me into.
he seemed to be reluctant to tell me.
and im reluctant to probe further as well.

i do admit tt i miss you at times.

but i cant say that i love you anymore.
because i don't seem to know you as i used to..

come to think of it,
on what basis am i missing you?

*shrugs*
weird.

this cny is another slack n relax cny.
basically we cant do any visiting except to both ah mas' places.
thats abt it.

went to my paternal ah ma's hse today.
im really really really NOT close to any relatives from there at all lar.
so i was just park myself at some ulu corner n concentrate on playing ds lite.

ma tried to "stage a rebellion" and got ticked off by ah ma.
pls lor....
really super bu zhi liang li man...
go against tt qi xi tai huo..

anyway, since we were like super super free,
we went for movie "follow the law".

kao.. sit FIRST row lar!!
its not abt the neck aching..
but i just felt kinda giddy man.

tmr can spend the whole morning slping til i auto wake up then slowly gei lek to ah ma's hse for mahjong n food.

i love steamboat!!!!!!!!!!
[actually i think i meant i love prawns.]

w/o fail, every cny in the recent yrs,
i will meet with some "crisis".

heng, ive got pet to help me solve it.
so we were in town in the morning trying to find a "solution".

anyway, im a very last min person.
i actually managed to get a pair of contact lenses!

muay fan actually recommended me to try those fake nails.
omg. they're so long!!
whenever i try to rub my eyes,
i will end up scratching myself somehow.

so mafan.
i might as well spend time painting my nails.

talking abt painting nails.
ive been wanting to have bright chilli red nails for quite sometime.

tt explains y i got a bottle of nail polish of that colour.
oh man...
HOW I ADORE IT!!

tmr is gg to be such a boring day!!
but still...
i better go slp soon.
coz....

the damn hairstyle made me have to wake up alot earlier coz i need to straighten my hair??!
freaking mafan lar!!

because cny is such a major thingy,
i shall pamper myself with bird nest!!
drink bird nest and use bird nest mask!!..

total indulgence.........

whenever i finally decide to pack a part of my room,
in the mids of it,
somebody will have to come n ask me out.

n it nv fails to tempt me coz i hate being in the big big mess in my room.

left my table turned bookshelf packed halfway and went to meet deb to chiong shopping in bugis.

she really ought to thank me!
im so damn EFFICIENT!!
she got everything she needed.
and i got a top!

reached home ard 11.30 and had to continue to convert the table turned bookshelf back to table again.
n tt took me like 1.5hr?

1am: settle down for yu le.

2am: bathe. watched show again.

3.30am: went to bed and din fall alsp till 5+am?
coz i was like rolling in bed in great pain??
all becoz of the damn gastric.

i was like hoping somebody will like discover tt i was in such great pain and send me to the hospital!

6.30am: my phone cldnt stop vibrating.
this idiotic tutee called me???
to tell me she JUST realised tt she wld be coming home later and had to change tuition time?

WAH!! FREAKING PISSED LAR!!

1. do u have to call me so freaking early in the morning to tell me tt?

2. now tt my tuition time will ALL be delayed,
i can only meet muay fan very very much later.



[ there's still my piano and the com area not packed.
i think my piano has been transformed to like a dressing table and it might be collapsing anytime.
i promise i will give it a gd polish tmr.]

[[ section one ]]



joey's [my tutee] hamsters.
recently they just gave birth and she asked me if i wld like to bring 2 home to yang.

U GOT TO BE KIDDING!!

me?? yang hamsters??
i dont even dare to touch any other furry/hairy/feathery living things other than humans.



[[ section two ]]



the chocolate thingy i made the other day.
gave most to ah ma and ah yi.
im not a fan of this.

my MUST-HAVE cny goodies are:
1. kok zai [the "peanut" pok]
2. pineapple tarts
3. this peanut/almond thingy



[[ section three ]]



mainly my wash off masks.
was packing them the other day.



[[ section four ]]

some very interesting neighbours living on the 9th floor have decorated the lift lobby at their level for cny.
those pineapples and red stuff..

i tot tt was very kua zhang man..
i mean.. isnt ur hse big enough for u to decorate already??

ok..prob they r just being kind and wanna share the cny qi fen with the rest.

as i was saying, i tot they were very kua zhang right?
i sallowed back my words.
coz... yi shan hai you yi shan gao!!

check out jio's [my another tutee] estate!!



this is the corridor.

and tts not abt all...



this is the linkway connecting jio's blk and the next blk!!
n it is DECORATED as well??

it's definitely the acts of residents not the town council or what so ever.

i think they are really excited and happy abt cny approaching.



[[ section five ]]




the diy jing zhu...



[[ section six ]]

ended up gg town alone deb was sick.
anyhow, saw minghui [my cousin] and stopped to chat abit.



[[ section seven -announcement]]

the chalet will be on from 23rd till 25th.
it has been booked!!
details will be smsed to relevant parties when it's approaching.

i am still VERY traumatized by my damn haircut!!

can u imagine??!
i actually dreamt on 2 separate accounts tt i was complaining to pet n muay fan abt my hair gana chopped??!

i finall had a chance to complain to deb over the phone just now.
she was like trying to comfort me by saying tt my hair cld have been worse n stuff like these.

but im not the least bit comforted!!!

feel like crying man!!!!!!!!
*ARGH*

gg shopping with deb tmr evening.
please let it be a fruitful one man!!!

up till now, ive yet to clean/clear up:
1. my desk
2. 1 bookshelf
3. the com area

today is so~~ not my day!!!
freaking sway till dunnoe what man..

MY HAIR GOT CHOPPED TILL SO DAMN BLOODY SHORT LAR!!!!!

my hair has such slow growth rate and tt idiot still did tt to me!!
TMD!!!

n as if things arent tt bad,
i look like a total ah gong[i dun mean grandpa tt ah gong,] lar!!!!

ARGH!!!!
tts like nothing i can do abt it, except for gg for another haircut.
but then if i do tt, i might as well cut super short again!!!

QI SI LAO NIANG LE!!!!!



* just came back from chinatown with my parents.
damn tired..
plan to pack my warehse tmr.

im like so~~ inefficient man!!

1. ive not finish baking/making those goodies coz ive run out of ingredients.
noe why?
coz i ruined part of them.
so need to replenish tmr.

2. ive not finish my jing zhu.
noe why?
coz ive run out of super glue.
tt fat i got isnt the type i want.
so.. need to stock up tmr.

most likely ive got to burn midnight oil tmr le..
**sigh**

anyway, was quite surprised tt xiao zhu actually spoke mandarin on the dance floor.
we were spectulating tt he will most prob bei hao all the eng tai ci before gg on stage.

at least he didnt go up there n say:
"my album... very special and... mmm... GOOD LISTEN!!"

go figure out what he's trying to say on your own.

actually, intended to go to the airport tmr afternoon.
but last min change of mind--> decided to just go home straight after poa to make some cy goodies.

sun bian can work on my jing zhu.
got to rush like mad now!!
coz ive actuall slacked for the past few days.
OH NO!!!

as for your concern,
ive got no idea what's happening nor who's the one talking abt it,
but i will try to give it some serious thoughts.

had a busy day today coz:

1. had to go for piano lesson this morning.

2. had to pick up my laptop.

3. had to meet winnie for lunch.

4. had to go for tuition.

5. had to meet debbie for post birthday celebration.


bot quite a bit of stuff while out with deb.
she suggested we go jack's place for the so called "celebration".

anyway, heard tt suzanne went on some overseas exchange program in seattle.
wow.. and tt she went for braces coz of her hu ya.

used to have one when i was in pri sch, but went to extract it.
coz of some dumb belief tt i naively believed then.
but still..
im super relieved tt i did extract it.

[deb cldnt stop laughing at my "belief" and genevieve's strange laughing actions.]

tt aside, its like ive told muay fan,pam and deb abt the recent zp meow incident.
they do agree with me tt it's obviously actions of zap meow!!

honestly speaking, im not biased against zap meow.
i am obviously VERY biased against her.

there was this entry on agnes' blog abt ultrasonic ringtones.
my bro has it and tt time when we were like very interested in it,
he kept testing it on on me.

a particularly interesting encounter which he share with me then:

apparently his class pple love to play tt ultrasonic ringtone in class.
n they will burst into laughters when their teachers cant hear a shit.

yes.. they get a kick out of nonsense like this.

k, today's entry is long enough le.
wanna go watch tv now.

**ARGH**
there's so much things to be completed these few days!!!!!!!!!

went artfriend yest with winnie to get materials.
basically we were in town to buy stationary?
how dumb man..

anyway, turned out i went out with pet today.
went for dim sum in the morning!!
freaking shiok!

went to this huge stationary shop in funan to get some stuff.
then wasted quite a bit of time at ms.
not only tt, we wasted money.

*irrated look*

so decided to go bugis village and coz we were damn lazy to walk there, we decided to take 133 from suntec.
n tt idiot bus made us wait for so damn long tt we switched to taking a cab?

dunnoe why, pet was like super nice today.
she was the one who kept helping me choose clothes to try on.
she seemed to get a kick out of helping pple choose clothes.
so i just stood ard while she kept a lookout for me.

"for once" she is so~~ nice.
but then hor.. i oso very nice to her k..
who was the one who went to pick her up after work?!!
HAHAHAHA!

guess what happened today?
i was just talking abt X the last entry,
and i bumped into her today.

n tts like after 2+yrs?

whatever it is, i dont care if Y knows tt im talking abt her.
if she does, gd for her.
just go on guessing who im talking abt.

just came back from macs.
met muay fan for supper after my cf and we actually stayed there n talked for super super long.

anyway, she told me abt this ex-classmate of ours, X.
abt her encounter with tt X recently and how she has changed blah blah.

it honestly made me feel damn sad for tt X.
coz she doesn't realise how pathetic her life is.

and all these set me thinking abt another ex-friend, Y.
hopefully she doesnt lun luo till the same stage as X.