Y
was trying for so many times to update an entry at pet's place,
but her com kept auto shut down..
dun even noe whats the problem man.
eventually i gave up.
u noe what?
theres no such things as one cannot do w/o another.
yeah.
human thinks this way..
but its proven other wise.
yeah.
the harder things get for me, the more determined i am to get over it.
of coz with the help of my guardian angels..
pet, sunya, aud, hui fen and mr stone.
went drinking with hui fen and ivan on thurs nite.
went back to singtel on friday afternoon coz ive got nothing much to do.. and was waiting for aud and irene to knock off.
confided in aud and she shared some stuff with me.
dan was nice to treat me milo. haha.
thanks brother.
went for dinner with irene and was supposed to meet aud after dinner for movie. but due to some reasons, i din meet up with aud.
in the end, i sent irene home and went to meet pet at her place.
went gardens for supper and a drink.
by the time we reached her place, it was ard 2 le. miss petrina was too tired from her camp, so she fell aslp very fast.
meanwhile, i was complaining to mr stone. yea. this stone is only available for complaining. volunteered to comfort me by asking me to go cut his hair with him.
ha ha. thanks ar.
had lunch at pet's place this afternoon. her mum bot kway tiao for me. think charissa is damn cute lar.. [did i spell her name wrongly?] very cute man.. n very friendly.
after tt was damn tired, so decided to go home instead of gg out with mr stone.
dunnoe why, just had this urge to pack my room just b4 sch starts.. yeah. spent quite sometime clearing up.
and just fell aslp.
aud was kinda nice. she actually bothered to check on me.
jake asked me to watch movie with him.. but not interested man. dun wanna join the 3some for anything.
had steamboat at ah ma's place..
fantastic.
just finished emailing to sunya.
yea..
m tired.. got to force myself to compile all those notes for zei tmr man..
**tired**
haven been sleeping properly for days!!!!
superman at
11:30 PM
Y
you know.. after all those stuff that ive found out..
alright, you may call this intruding into your privacy.
i think none of us shld hate or dislike one another.
in fact i think we shld hate you.
i saw the horror part of you today..
it scares me.
to know what you're capable of doing.
you'r practically manipulating our lives man.
should i move on as if i dunnoe a single shit?
or.
should i just put an end to everything?
let me calm down and think thru stuff.
superman at
12:19 PM
Y
just woke up not too long ago.
**yawn**
zei just msged me.. apparently he needs my help..
mei zhi you yong leh..
=)
will be meeting up with him soon ba.
anyway, come. lets update abt the jb trip.
i controlled my spending man. if not ar..
was damne excited going jb lar.. if im not wrong, its my 1st time there.
yea yea.. i noe i kinda sua ku..
but then again.. ya. its my 1st time there.
i nearly shopped til my legs break man.
ask irene and audrey.
oh. they persuaded me to buy this pair of minnie mse shoes. haha
i think i must be out of my mind to buy it man.
its sooo not like me.
to think ive been wearing it for like 2 days?
haha
they're having a sales there. n things are damn cheap lar..
honestly.
much more worth it to buy than in sg.
from the customs, we walked to city square and shop shop shop.
after tt, we took cab to holiday inn. i dun think theres much stuff there though..
and after which we went to da ma hua yuan by cab again to makan.
the food there was fantastic.
taste n price wise.
yum yum.
do not underestimate 3 girls's appetite man..
we ate ALOT.
bbq stingray, hot plate tofu, sambal kangkong, furong egg and 2 chilli crab.
so much dishes for just RM77!!
honestly ar, it would made more sense for the 3 of us to frequent jb more often.
i mean it's faster for us to go jb than go town.
we 're living near woodlands.
and just cross a bridge,
things become damn cheap.
bus fare oso cheap.
was told by irene tt for the trip back, we just have to pay RM 1.
OOooo..
superman at
11:21 AM
Y
im too tired to blog abt my jb trip.
yeah.
let me have a good rest tonite with my friend,
and i shall update when i've got the chance to.
my ankle is hurting like crap man..
superman at
12:37 AM
Y
i strongly believe that one cant be too happy or too sad in a day.
everything will balance up.
and this sucks.
superman at
11:44 PM
Y
woke up at like 6am this morning.
it has been a long long time since ive woken up so early le man.
today is the 100th day since ah gong passed away.
ya.. so must go bai4 bai4.
we were supposed to meet at 7.30, so left the hse ard 6.30 just to go for breakfast.
anyway, we're kinda early..
after we're done, we went ah ma's place to bai4 bai4 again.
all of us were sitting ard, waiting for the food to be ready.
yea.
its been a very very long time since there was such a lively and engaging gathering.
really.
1st time, i dont find myself thinking why the time is like crawling.
had a very interesting chat with ming hui.
shes my cousin.
its so amazing how pple related genetically think alike. hahaha
apparently, since we've got so much free time, we're gg to meet for some activities.
out of a sudden, we're so close.
but its kinda a nice feeling to have a family gathering like tt..
superman at
3:28 PM
Y
yea man..
sometimes i just feel so bloody neglected.
yea.
go ahead and apologise.
im sick and tired of it.
superman at
12:24 AM
Y
ermz.. i think im gg crazy. really.
just now ya.. i was feeling the dumbest ass on earth.
but now im feeling kinda the happiest creature on earth.
yea?
i had a long chat with mr stone abt how things are.
ya.
no doubt, i was trying my best to make everything i say seemed like a funny joke.
but then,
i truly meant all those stuff i told him today.
its funny how daring n straight forward i suddenly become.
but i guess something good came out of it.
i acutally thought of calling pet n rj to share the news with them.
but i guess they'll punch me in the face for waking them up.
nvm. theres always tmr.
oh. im going to email sunya to update her.
superman at
3:46 AM
Y
whenever im pissed/ upset/ angry with you,
i choose to ignore you.
and when you ask me what is it tt makes me ignore you and stuff,
telling me tt you really dont have any idea whats gg on,
then i'll go:" whats the point of me telling you whats wrong? it doesnt even matter"
sometimes, i really wonder if by telling you what i dont like will really make some things different not.
apparently.
no.
today's eg is such a classic one man.
you msg me saying: "gg clubbing[hope you'll not get angry at this]"
isnt it kinda funny and contradicting?
what do u mean by you HOPE i'll not get angry?
its like you've already predicted i'll get angry and yet you're going ahead of what you wana do.
i give up.
im tired and sick of all these shit.
read this, its adapted from hui fen's blog:
"Hey girl! You've been so cute! thanks for all the laughter that you brought to me esp during the times when nai ma's in bad mood and when i get very shitty cases. Stay cute. I know you are very troubled abt things between you and her. i guess it takes time for both of u to understand each other better. Try to be nicer to her and stop rejecting her calls! haha..."
yea man.
fortunately, theres sth else for me to rejoice and be occupied with.
mr stone msged me today and it really made me damn happy man.
i've just psycho him to go jb with me after he cleared all his exams.
how old already? still studying and taking exams..
my god.
superman at
1:59 AM
Y
pet was telling me today tt rebecca kepts asking her why i dun wanna tok to her.
and tt whenever she calls me, i'll tell her im busy.
haha.
debbie, shes still very in love with me huh?? haha..
superman at
12:36 AM
Y
regardless of the time and venue,
people do put down whatever things they're engrossed in and stop to think about what has been happening ard them.
have you encounter moments whereby you just paused and think:" am i making the right decisions? have i made the wrong move??"
this happens to me very often.
i need time to think through things before i move on.
do not hurry me.
superman at
11:31 PM
Y
ive found a good way to express thoughts more efficiently.
yea.
i shall carry it ard with me man.
oh n i developed the photo yesterday.
carefully put it in its rightful place...
superman at
11:35 PM
Y
yesterday was in town with
I.
it wasnt a great experience but we did make up afterwards.
anyhow.
we were going to
I's place, joining the cab queue at this particular hotel.
ive got no idea what's the name of the hotel.
but its the hotel btw pac plaza and DFS.
anyway, i down right think tt the hotel staff sucks.
when you're in a taxi queue, whoever is at the front of the queue should get the cab.
right?
sorry, at this hotel, n i think all hotels,
the stupid doorbell guy[i think tts what they are called], will open the door and usher those foreigners into the cab even though these pple are not even in the queue.
HARLOW??
what nonsense is this man?
what the hell lor.
was damn pissed lar..
this service is totally ridiculous!
ok. end of the 1st taxi story.
i called a cab at 12.20am? n the cab came at like 1?
he couldnt find
I's place.
-_-""
luckily hes a nice guy lar. ended up making friends with him and he said to call him if i cant find a cab next time.
nice guy..
came home at abt 1.30. parents sound aslp.
**phew**
tired.
sleep.
superman at
11:24 PM
Y
i understand how one of my friends feels..
really.
it is dman fustrating to feel that u're some hou bei lun tai.
u get?
u noe whatever the time is, wherever you are, whatever you're done,
there's always me who will be there for you.
with my hands wide open for you,
willing to be there to accept you again.
you know this.
you do.
yet.
again and again,
you abuse this.
perhaps it's right.
man does not know how to appreciate things when he owns it.
he only realises when he loses it.
i guess my absense doesnt mean much to you.
honestly.
yesh. you may say, i do treasure you. you do matter to me.
im sorry.
actions speak louder than words.
i've got no idea whats going thru ur mind.
i really dont.
my friends appreciate me more than you do.
my friends treasure me more than you do.
at the end of the day,
you come back to me, hoping i'll accept you again.
but.
do you realise,
one day,
things are just too much for me to bear,
that i decide to move on with my own life?
sunya deserves somebody much better.
so do i.
superman at
11:34 PM
Y
oh man!!!
i just read irene's blog..
apparently vinci is going to join us for the jb trip!!!!
**ARGH**!!
do i have to go everywhere with a male escort???!
OH MAN!!!!!!
SOS!!!
it was a good thing tt he left earlier yesterday..so we din had to go home together.
but this time round..
im not too sure abt it.
superman at
12:55 AM
Y
its not that i dun like to stay at home.. its just tt whenever im home n ma is home, we're always quarreling. its dman irrritating lar.. she just dun understand tt its her nagging tts keeping me n bai bab away from home man.
whatever.
anyway, i was omost late for the dinner last night.
but who noes the 3some[i.e jake, winston and audrey] are even more late.
dinner was at cineleisure.
was soso lar..
our grp was too big, so had to split.
grp 1: winston, jake, aud n vinci
grp 2: muay fan, me, david, robby and irene.
yea.
im sitting with my biggest prawn rival again!
think we cleared like 3 plates of prawns man.
robby and i had a big prawn challenge.
haha.
we emptied the entire plate of prawns into the pot.
after they're cooked,
we would fight to see who scoop up the most number of prawns.
damn fun.
1st round i won.
2nd round he won.
last nite's theme for our table was "yei3 wei4"
eating n cooking like we're some barbarians.
taught by robby.
after finishing those "main dish",
we were more than ready to start making ice cream.
ya.. all the 5 of us are su ku ones.. nv tried this ice cream thingy b4.
so had some difficulities making ice cream in the 1st place..
anyhow, our ice cream maker for the nite was...
MR ROBBY!!
look at him making ice cream for all of us!
we ate so many different flavours of ice cream that our taste buds just gave up and everything taste omost the same.
whatever it is.
we had great fun at dinner.
after dinner, we had such a hard time deciding whether to go for ktv not..
irene n vinci did not join us.
ya..
after much discussion,
we decided to try this new ktv place.
ive forgotten whats the place's name.
somehow we sort of got conned into going tt place.
its more like a nightclub stuff... some sort like it.
everywhere theres pple smoking and stuff.
yea. we all went home reeking of smoke.
dman disgusting.
ktv could have ben more fun if not for the smoke.
reached home ard 2am.
shared cab with audrey and muay fan.
damn tired..
superman at
2:35 PM
Y
oh great.
tonight i would have someone to escort me home.
if he really sends me to my doorsteps,
i'll be dman grossed out..
eeeeee.....
m looking forward to tonight.
no.
not toally.
a small part of me isnt.
coz winston is gg.
**argh**
irene called me this morning.
hey girl. i was so comfortable in bed u noe.. why do u have to drag me out of bed!!
its the 2nd time already!
anyway, thurs excursion has been brought forward to today.
yea.
coz miss irene is working then.
the 1st thing i said over the phone was:
"OH SHIT"
coz my sister came..
what the....
to think i was asking
I yesterday tt qns yesterday.
superman at
12:02 PM
Y
as promised,
im here to declare my love for
I.
haha
Thanks for brining me to eat kway chap even though u were real sick last nite.
superman at
11:50 AM
Y
went for movie yesterday.
FANTASTIC 4!!
5 popcorns!!
anyway, after watching tt, went for crab again.
y god!
IM BROKE!!
SOS!!!
superman at
10:35 PM
Y
tmr's gg to be the last day of work!!!!
ssshhiok!!
im gg to aux all the way tmr man.
anyway, already starting to aux today le. haha
li hai ba?
took a couple of photos todae.. coz zei's team is off tmr.. yup.
so here are the photos.
superman at
10:12 PM
Y
went out with irene, audrey and jake yesterday.
to watch this movie called :"six"
stupid.
i was forced to watch the movie man.
ok.
i din watch.
i was forced to sit in.
tt stupid jake went ahead and made the booking even though i kept insisting tt i did not want to watch tt show.
anyway, coz jake ended work late, so i went over irene's house. she kept insisting that her room is super messy.
irene. if u happen to read this entry, im here to tell u tt ur room is not messy alright??
its hai hao..
haha
was at her place reading some magazines n discussing over some "beauty" stuff.
yup.
then went to makan dinner at BK. rather nice.
waited for miss audrey for so damn long man. in the end, went shopping ard and we went hair bands shopping. oh me n audrey have the intention of buying these sweater from Dano.
yest to buy.
waited for jake to end work at 8 n to chiong down.
what happened in the movie was tt i was hiding behind audrey's jacket all the time and listening to jake's ipod.
great.
i used up almost all the battery in jake's ipod.
haha.
i din watch the movie at all.
so morale of the story:
DO NOT FORCE ME TO WATCH HORROR MOVIE!!!
superman at
7:00 PM
Y
I'M SWINGING SUPER HIGH RIGHT NOW.
FOR THESE FEW DAYS.
DO NOT PROVOKE ME ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!
superman at
1:22 PM
Y
am i supposed to be grateful tt you actually remembered tt i exist??am i supposed to thank god for tt??OH! YOU REMEMBERED ME!!even though this comes after you're all done with your friends, your trainings, and whoever there might be in your life.yeah.im always the last on the list.friends above me.trainings above me.classes obviously above me.school work above me.friends can be above trainings.friends can be above soon to be dued school work.friends can be above trainings.trainings can be above school work.and me??can just be satisfied with being placed at the bottom of everything.always am told:" ive got to go for trainings.. im in this this com. ive got responsibilities to fulfil."OR"ive got to do my schwork. tts why blah blah blah"great man.im the LAST.yes.L-A-S-T.LAST.oh come on woman.
be grateful!!!!
at least u're remembered!!!last so what???at least u're in the list!!its better than nothing at all!!!dont be such an attention seeker!!
**slap slap**
BE GRATEFUL!!!BE EASILY SATISFIED!!!yea right man........i am so not convinced...nobody knows how terrible im feeling right now..nobody....
superman at
5:24 PM
Y
im not much better.
i just msged mr stone to tell him tt im quitting on thurs.
i must be stressed too...
superman at
9:10 PM
Y
disappointment is something i've got to learn how to deal with.
how to live with.
superman at
7:30 PM
Y
i wanted to blog just now, say 30 mins ago to say tt ive got nothing to blog.
anyway, im sitting at zei's place updating this entry. sitting very near kathy. and she enlightened me abt payment of salary. yeah.
**enlightened look**
great.
hurray!! its just 6 more days to freedom!!!!
no matter how much i hate this job,
i guess i'll still miss it.
miss all those wonderful people ive met here..
zei, mr stone, robby, david, niang, hui fen, hazel, audrey, irene, zety, joy, jos, hazel, azie, joan, jake, ros, idayu, winston, lily, rani, alex and many many more..
just cant remember all the names at one shot.
these memories will always be that sweet..
yesh.
im gg to miss all of you!!
hopefully, one day we can go for steamboat dinner/ indo buffet/ ktv.
really miss those times....
and i just wanna let u pple noe..
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
**muacks**
you guys definitely make my life in STM much more tolerable and fun!
superman at
3:25 PM
Y
early in the morning,
mr stone msged me and just started telling me tt he's working in bedok, the main office.
i think he's too stressed at work.
i dun even know what to talk to him abt.
**shrugs**
superman at
11:42 AM
Y
im aware that in your eyes,
im some girl who is petty, unreasonable, selfish, attention seeking and trying to control your life.
its so amazing how you always dont see things the way i do.
and im sorry to say,
me too.
do not see things the way you do.
im sorry.
superman at
10:59 PM
Y
im bored.
super bored.
staying at home for the whole day is really damn boring.
plain sleeping, watching tv.
dont even feel like eating anything else but longans.
but.
if i continue eating longans,
i really can be prepared to start clapping hands to get pple's attention and to be dumb for the entire day.
superman at
10:15 PM
Y
sometimes the choices you made really disappoint me.
m i truly not worth to have you choosing me over other stuff???
i really question myself in times like these.
this is what really drives me mad.
real mad.
superman at
6:29 PM
Y
yesterday was off day. but din rest at all man.
ya. so im resting at home today.
really sick till must take mc.
went to the dr downstairs.. its damn ex lar. my god.
i requested for a day's mc,
but,
to my surprise,
the dr actually said to herself:
"1 day enough meh? i dont think so. give you 2 days"
its the 1st time i got a 2 days mc lor.
so the illness must be quite bad.
slept the whole day lar. and went for piano in the morning.
alright. enough for today.
yesterday, went kbox with H. damn fun lar.. all the singing.
after singing, met with
I at somerset.
whatever happened while we were in town,
i dun wanna say.
went for a crab feast at night.
it was really too much a feast.
came back home, quickly pia piano man til almost 1am.
**tired**
superman at
6:27 PM
Y
my favourite shitzhu!!!!!!!!!!! such a dearie......
superman at
9:50 PM
Y
J catches my eyes.
superman at
9:06 PM
Y
i still remember once may hui asked me this question:
"are you feeling very insecured?"
i was stunned.
she had posed me this question under certain circumstances.
honestly, i am feeling very insecured.
i mean the world is so uncertain.
am i not right to say so?
just take this for instance:
HF had taken 2 days of urgent leave. we all wondered what happened.
shes back at work today.
told me that her father just got stroke out of a sudden.
a healthy looking man just got a stroke out of nowhere.
isnt tt very scary?
can u imagine,
after tt day the incident took place,
the life of the entire family is changed.
i had dinner with her today.
for the 1st time,
we walked out for dinner w/o speaking much.
she kept telling me how worried she is for her dad. apparently, his life is in danger to a certain extent.
i can understand her anxiety,
but as a friend,
i do not know what to do to comfort her.
as i had my dinner,
she sat beside me,
staring into space.
i didnt even dare to look at her.
but.
at the corner of my eyes,
i can see that shes quietly tearing.
**sigh**
lets just hope her father will recover soon..
superman at
7:35 PM
Y
xiao kuku was looking for me today.
called her back wondering what the issue was about.
guess what?
she actually asked me for my advice as to which piano she should buy for jie ping.
and she cant decide btw this japan made piano or UK made one.
if i were her, i would go for the UK one man.
i dont like yamaha one.
dont like the touch.
anyway, jie ping is damn lucky man.. to have such a good piano.
ive got no idea why a grade 1 student need such a good piano.
i dont intend to change unless im really going to be a full time piano teacher.
whats the point of having such a good piano?
its not like im gg to have a concert/recital at home right??
yea.
anyway, i recommended xiao kuku to buy the UK made one.
superman at
5:57 PM
Y
sometimes i really feel like seeing
you damn badly..
for instance, yesterday?
i mean its like i haven been feeling tt great since saturday..
and it would definitely be such a great comfort if
you were just right beside me.
me: can
you come and be beside me?
I: i wish...
[ as usual. tt's the answer i get. ]
i get damn irritated with tt answer boy.
i mean its like whats the point of saying "i wish"??
it sounds like
you're at the same frequency as me.
like you too wanna see me.
but then again.
at the same time,
no effort seems to be made to get that "wish".
oh well. fine.
what more can i say.
yea.
you need
your own personal space and time.
alright.
go ahead.
i'm
speechless..
superman at
12:36 AM
Y
its been such a long long day..
im sick.
my tonsils are swollen.
i kept sneezing.
hai..cant take it any longer.
anyway, dear audrey got me the basket bag!!! the exact one tt she has... jake and her went to get it for me. so happy..
tt's how the bag looks like.
my newest straw bag.....
tt's kam kam.. say hi!!!
i showed it to irene. and guess what?
she got the same bag as well.
my god.
the two of us are going to look kinda ridiculous when we carry that to school man.
walking side by side.
after work went over to A's place. just like yesterday.
i stayed at her place for quite sometime last night.
not til the morning light though.
well.
today's her turn.
went over her place for dinner.
her mum cooked for us.
then she suggested tt we go over my place.
so here we are now.
my place.
she shld be gg home soon..
i dunnoe.
yup yup.
tt aside.
ive found the pictures
I took the other time we went esplanade.
the one of the jiggsaw puzzles exhibition tt alvin recommended.
the pictures arent that fanatastic.
I said the photos look like cabbage hanging form the ceiling.. hahaha!
but trust me.
you'll go "wow..." when you see it yourself.
superman at
12:21 AM
Y
today i learn how to post picture using phtotbucket. kinda slow.. but oh well.. doesnt matter.
all thanks to irene!!!
=)
ya. so this is my dream phone for now.
superman at
3:12 PM
Y
ive already tendered my resignation letter.
wef 14/7/05.
yesterday there was this exit interview by leka. i think shes so freaking fake.
**brrr**
anyway, the newbies are driving me crazy man.
for the whole of yesterday, i was bombarded with so many stupid questions by the newbies and the customers.
give me a break man.
oh please........
change plan ask me.
gprs/mms ask me.
CIS ask me.
everything also ask me,
might as well i sit at your seat and help u answer the call man.
simpler.
superman at
11:16 AM
Y
some people are damn fucking irritating.
i was out for dinner at crystal jade with H. we were ordering our food and stuff. and i was informed by H tt theres this couple sitting 3-4 tables away from us, who were commenting on our mandarin very loudly. apparently the both of us werent talking in BIAO ZHUN HUA YU..
asshole man.
is tt any concern of yours??
oh please man....
just mind your own business..
superman at
11:07 AM
