am thinking if i shld have a bdae party next year..
abit the early to think about this...
but nvm..

i shall just be honest and say that my main purpose of holding a party is not to celebrate my bday.
coz lao niang is honestly not THAT happy about being older.

my main purpose is to invest in a party that i deemed will provide HIGH RETURNS in the super short run.

yes..
told xuefeng about it..
she made me sort of promise that i will invite her...

and i told her:
"of coz i will.. u'll come and be the ca le fare [dunnoe how to spell lar..] for the party. hahaha"

and she replied:
"i go there camo in the backgrd eat all your food arh?"

i tot that was really funny..
i invite my friends to come over and camo in the backgrd to eat..
hahaha..

i shall continue to think abt it..
ive got like 6 more mths..

Food For Thought:

i thought sometimes i think abit too much..
till the point that it become an disillusion to me.

if only there isnt any asymmetric information to speak off in the first place,
things might have been better..

i do wonder if i,
who by refusing to listen to the other party's explanation and insisting what i deemed is the right version,
was the one at fault.

but still..
such thoughts arent allowed to remain in my mind for long.

coz..
everyone tends to believe in his own side of the story.
everyone tends to think he's right.

that's just human nature.

another thing.
when do we have to be generous with our "I love you"?

you would be thinking:
life is short.
we better seize the chance and declare our love to those we love.
some people arent even given the chance to say "I love you" to their loved ones.

but wait.

when we get too generous with our "I love you",
we'll be thinking:

another "I love you"...
dont even noe if he/she means it...

it becomes something as common as saying "hello" whenever you answer a call.

there isnt much meaning to it, is there?

even if you truly mean what you say,
others may still doubt you.

so..
when do we say "I love you" so that its meaning is truly gotten across to the other party?

i doubt i will ever know..

just ended a war with a mega cockcroach..
heng it decided to fly to ming hao's room instead of mine..
haha...

so, i quickly chiong to my room to seek shelter!!
n inside my room, i was practically shouting instructions to him..
finally it was killed.

went town with fart smeller today.
hahaha...

rest assured.
shes not muay fan.
in the end, i din go out with her today.

so... jio fart smeller out.
what a nice nick man...

and the person who came up with the nick?
none other than fart smeller herself.
hahaha..

she's nice enough to keep me accompany today..
together to get my hair cut..

lets talk abt hair cut now.
had it at icon at wisma.

managed to get alvin to cut it for me.
hes really good..
to me lar..

dumb reasons why i think he's gd:
1. he called me "xiao mei mei" before.
2. he kept showing his boxers off.

hahahahaha....
i had to gek zhu my laughters whenever i see his boxers showing in the mirror.

okok..
the most acceptable reason why i like him cutting my hair is becoz he will keep length when i say:" i want to keep length."

and not CUT SHORT when i say:" i want to keep length."
thats when i get real irritated.

wont be taking pics of new haircut..
becoz..
its not exactly new haircut..
its just a trim.

wait till i cut my hair short again.
something new, then i will plaster pic of my haircut here.

got a new mask today.
after reading nu ren wo zui da.
tot the packaging was quite nice and cute..

so... went to check it out at L'Occitane.
a sales associate[what they call themselves] introduced the product to me..
its for hydating purposes..

the moment she told me one of the ingredients is royal jelly,
i set my mind on it.

what's my favourite??
ROYAL JELLY!!!!

so??
MUST BUY!!



cant wait to try it out tonight man!!!!

the other day bought this andrea Q's eye masks.
it somehow sounds kinda convincing to me.
so?
buy.

tried it out last night.
the eye mask really damn funny looking.
it has bright yellow and bright blue colours on it.

tot i shld take a dumb photos of me with tt eye mask on.
coz its real funny.



its not tt i dont wanna smile..
i was trying not to laugh.

tt mask just make my skin feel quite tight..
so cannot laugh...
not even smile..
later got railway tracks.

and damn.
now then i remember i shld have done the batman shit instead!
nvm.. next time next time.

bai baba saw me applying eye cream klast night as he was going into his room.
and before he went it,
he just had to kao jia me by saying:
"xiong mao."

idiotic hamburger.
thats's his newest nick.
hamburger.

dearest pam kindly introduced some online shopping websites to me.
ARGH!!!!!!!
stuff online are very tempting at times!!!

im gg to buy a rose mask from one of the websites.
sth recommended by old cow..

if the site is trust-able,
think my money will just keep flying there..

lastly..
a photo i took before meeting muay fan the other day.

i hate classes in the morning...
let alone on a sat morning!!!

again, damn sway today..
due to some "techincal" problems,
i was in such a wonderful "attire" that i din noe where to hide.
regretted not having my cap with me.

anyway, i simply love to watch tv.
nothing but tv.

and..
am totally in love with my boss my hero..
its kinda touching sometimes..

might be gg out with muay fan tmr.
might only..

not exactly looking forward to it..
coz im rather tired..
but still.. i dont dread it...

we shall see ba...
back to tv!!

i knew today just wasnt my day when i woke up this morning.
and indeed indeed..

1. i kept tripping over stuff today.
when the hell do u keep tripping over sth?
when u're sway.

2. i lost my damn calculator.
what the fuck...
how many damn calculators do i have to lose???

worse still, tt model is like on its way to extinction.
where to hunt for it man?!!

3. ive got to sit thru the stupid macro lec..
which is totally boring.

so boring tt i was like "timing" this guy...
who kept combing his hair with his fingers to make his fringe into those "curry pok" shape.

damn amusing lar..
and according to my observation,
he does that at least every 2 mins.

but anyway, there are still some heng stuff lar..

heng i managed to change my piano lesson to afternoon.
if not ive got to wake up at 645 just to go for piano lesson.

and heng.
managed to grab that only 1 copy of IM's journals from the library.

really super heng and damn unbelievable.
imagine u've got to fight with like probably 300+ students just to get tt 1 copy in the library!!

to think i even emailed miss koh and ask if she could spare me the hard copy.

anyway, that aside.
saw chiang, loretta and ya ting in sch.
surprised.
esp when i din see ya ting after 1 whole yr of being in the same premises.

thanks to deb,
im laughing like mad over the lao sai fart incident.
haha..

its too gross to share it here blah and shit.

muay fan came over my place last night to get some stuff done.
since it was too late for her to walk home by the time we were done,
she stayed over till morning.

the other day i mentioned tt when i was staying over at deb's place and we kept chatting in the dark right?

anyway, nowadays, i just love to use this
--> blah n shit
beocz some things just can be summarised with 'blah n shit' and whoever u're talking to will just get it.

so i think tt night right,
ms deb wasnt really listening to my "stories"..
instead i think she was just looking out for my 'blah n shit'..
coz tt woman simply loves them....

i dont why..
she's just mad.
whatever i said didnt contain the least bit of humour..
but with 'blah n shit' in it,
she will just laugh like mad.

tt's why i say...
shes crazy..

last bit of this entry.
sometimes when i feel broke,
or when i feel "mmm.. i think ive got tt bit of luck with me",
i'll go n buy 4D.

that is super rare though..

anyhow, sometimes i wonder why i buy 4D..
esp when i buy already, i dont check the results.

its as if im hoping tt one day i will just get a call.

"hi, im calling from sg pools. congratulations! u've won XXX prize! please kindly claim your prize at XXXXX."

though sg pools earn so damn much,
they dont have such services..
they rather u not collect your prizes.

quick update:

slept quite late last night at deb's place coz:
1. we were busy doing some stuff.
2. she was so tired tt she got real high and we kept talking in the dark.

but eventually, we reached this silent agreement whereby u will think tt the other person wana slp, so u'll just auto shut up.

got "forced" to wake up at 730am.
and the bad news was that it rained in the morning.
at least initially..

so we were kinda disappointed n stuff..
went for breakfast.

amazingly after breakfast, the rain stopped.
so we chiong to cycle.

it was damn fun.
cycled to yishun park from her place.
so fun till my slippers broke.
haha..

anyway, spotted swings in yishun park.
omg.
damn excited lar..
i mean... swings are like extinct playground facility now right??

took some pics there..
but i refused to post it here.
coz i think its damn ugly.

last point of the entry:
i totally love jay chou's latest album.
its precisely i think the songs in it have his "ba wu",
thats why i love it.

my favourite song would be "ting ma ma de hua".
though im not one who ting ma ma de hua..
oh well~~...

m over at deb's place tonight.
its my 1st time here for stayover.
and..its also the 1st time she has someone over for a stayover as well!!
haha..

becoz it was raining damn heavy in the evening, we've got no choice but to postpone our cycling "expedition"..

but but but.. we're gg tmr morning!!
that explains why im here over at her place.

took some photos..
dumb photos..

duh?
whats the point of taking nice photos.
they nv turn out nice...

but dumb photos nv fail serve its purpose.
which is to turn out dumb.

here comes the photos...


















pray tt tmr will be a sunny day!!









all teethy...







last pic of the day..
her bedroom slippers..

alright alright, better be off...
and join her in doing some stuff....

have been pretty busy these days..
coz sch has started.

im soo tired and overwhelmed tt im like so engrossed in playing chess with zhou gong b4 11pm nowadays.
esp when ive got to wake up at like 645am for 3 consecutive days for classes and other stuff.

kill me please.

im starting to get kinda bored though its just the 1st week of sch.
almost all my units this yr involve finance.

damn finance.
its just so~~ boring..

its not like in yr 1,
u've got maths, stats, econs, pbf and ibm lecs.
at least its different stuff u're talking abt.

but this yr?
finance.

sigh...

but i reckon macro economics is even worse.
even more boring..

enough abt those..
ive read the tags on my tagboard regarding the preivous entry abt ms swan.

haha...
wei tian.. u've been so~~ sweet and helpful man....
to throw me tt life vest!

as for yj. ive already confirmed her doubts when we were in sch.

sunya.. i'll tell u when we're both online.
=)

supposed to be at deb's hse at this moment.
but, becoz she has some work to do,
so we're gg to meet in the evening instead.

hence, im here slacking my afternoon away after a morning class.

the sad news is that i think our plan to go cycling is gg to be ruined coz it looks like its gg to rain very very soon.

let me update a little bit on deb's father.
her father is a very nice man...
coz deb asked him to go n clean the bikes and pump the tyres..
but.. he went to "revamp" the bikes.

haha..
i tot tt was kinda funny..
but of coz we appreciate his efforts.

ms deb warned me yest that her room is very messy.
isnt it damn funny?
whenever someone is coming to your place,
its sort of automactic tt u'll say: "oh.. dont say i din warn u ar.. my room is very messy.."

is that a ke qi hua?
or its a fact tt ur room is messy?

u'll noe when u get there.

oh. ma just asked me if i wld like to go cycling tmr.
she is like so~~ amazed cum amused that i actually love to cycle.

anyway...
i doubt it'll be a sunny day tmr..

damn sickening!

for now, life couldnt be more boring.
its just lectures and tuitions.

so~~ interesting!!
so much so that i cant believe it myself.

to add "spices" to my life,
ive got to put up with ms swan..

wow....

muay fan said that ms swan is the laughing stock.
i dont think so man.
i think shes the qian bian stock??

she's just so~~ tao ren xi huan!!!
that i qing bu zhi jing love her till i dunnoe what extent.

honestly speaking,
ive never been such a faker in life before.

my god.
how long more do i have to fake xia qu!?!!

*SENDING OUT SOS SIGNALS*

SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg!!
that bian tai ponytail flicker really msn me.

n ive got to try my best to just "haha" whenever i can..
such a bian tai!!

even bugged me to approve him on friendster.
then i told him " oh.. i dont use friendster for damn long already."

n he was like:" but u logged on like 5 days ago.."

*stunned*
"oh... my friend logged in for me ba... she has my pw u see.."

heng tt excuse got me thru man..
but its still so eeeeuuuuu...

all thanks to pet..

she told me yest tt she met dsl in sch.
so apparently she has yet to update me on the entire incident..
well well well..

had a real enjoyable day today.
today its family day!!

its been long since the four of us went out and spent quality time together ba..

went expo coz ma wanted to go for the food thingy.

anyhow, after that expo "excursion",
we went to marine parade for dinner.
coz ma wanted to eat dim sum from there.

when i was a kid,
sundays were usually spent at marine parade.
either at parkway parade or ecp.

parkway parade: go to the arcade there to play those kids stuff..
ecp: to cycle and bulid sand castles.

come to think of it,
i honestly dunnoe how to bulid sand castles man.
i doubt my parents noe how to..
i mean if they do noe, i wld noe as well right?

but all i remembered was mixing sand with the sea water ,scooping sand into pails and just making simple moulds.
oh. another one.
bury somebody's feet.

back to the story:
ive been like dying to go cycle somewhere for such a long time.

but.
sad to say.
majority of my friends cant cycle.

[but managed to persuade deb to cycling with me this coming sat.]

okay.. then i told bai baba abt it..
and we really went cycling at ecp after dinner!!!!
straight after dinner!!

super duper excited and happy!

i just think cycling is so damn fun lar.
i dunnoe why..
i just love it.

checked my email and lau has already replied me.
he's honestly full of crap lar..
really!!

waiting for him to email me pictures of his gf and him.
thats the zhong dian.
the rest are not!!

hahaha..

pet just told me that xin pin out of the blue msn her.
and tt woman gave him my msn add?

*faint*

n she comforted me by saying at least he cant flick my ponytail online.

if he ever gets the chance to do that again,
im gg to SHAVE MY HEAD!!!!

family "gathering" today.
so.. we went town.

some photos.
wont elaborate more on it.
coz im just too lazy!!

duh??






say cheese~~!!



pink ranger xian sheng le!!



took neoprints.
but i reckon its too small to scan.

bought rain's ep today from hmv.
my god..
cheap dao~~...

i don't wanna imagine how much his album will cost man..

read sth that sort of pissed me off..
again, aud mentioned me in her blog.
dated 6th sept ok.

telling me to meet up with her n stuff...
asking where i disappear to..

harlow??
who was the one who doesnt return my call, let alone answer my call??
who shld be the one complaining on her blog??!!

my part time gf is so~~ mei yong...
*sigh*

something im proud of!!
see see!!
2 earrings linked together.
[pic not very clear.. but tts the best le.]

i noe it isnt sth new..
but i FINALLY removed the original stud from my 2nd ear hole.
after like almost 8 mths??

the sad thing is the moment i removed it,
it started bleeding.

shld show zei soon man!
he will be so "proud" of me.
hahaha..

btw, kevin was over at my place today.
and just before he left,
he sort of got bombarded by ma..

i think she was just feeling kinda high tonight..
crazy old woman.

went sembawang music with muay fan today.
and rain's ep is coming today!!
and and and..
his album is in stores next week!!!

*EXCITED*
i must CHIONG to get them!!!!

needless to say,
its his new ep playing here.
lets "MOVE ON".

*top priority: get a LV luaggage once i can afford it.
it MUST be that exact same model.
it MUST have tt pretty green ribbon tied on it as well.

*2nd prioity: get a grey cap!!!

decided not to be lazy and upload photos taken the past few days.
but.
i will NOT post ANY photos to do with my laogong.
i dont have any anyway.

and.
i will NOT talk about him AT ALL here.
please do NOT talk to me about him AT ALL.

lets just start backtracking.
met pam for dinner n movie this evening.
bought a necklace which isnt exactly my "style".
but. i still like it.

watched "little man".
and honestly it was real funny.
i didnt care and just laughed as loudly as i want to.

saw mike neo outside cine today.
with a bunch of girls.
wonder why his "tao hua yun" so gd...
did he bribe girls with vdae presents again??
hahaha!

mentioned in previous entry that muay fan and i went out dman early in the morning right?
yesh..

because we were so lacking of sleep,
we were feeling damn high.
so. we took photos.











here's a msg to muay fan if she does read this entry:
dear muay fan...
im super grateful that u were willing to sacrifice your sleep for me.
thanks alot alot alot.
*muack*

tt afternoon met godma for lunch.
heng desmond is still in aus..
false alarm.

both ming hao n i were damn happy with our ang baos..
duh??

went out with muay fan after lunch with godma.
bought a lavender hand lotion from L'occitane.
i think its not bad.

had dinner at zhen fa huo hai xian at marina bay.
muay fan's suggestion..
tt woman was craving for it..
so the 3 of us went.



since she was the one who wanted to go there for dinner....
she must cook for us!
haha..

think tt day my bro almost wanted to mao me man..
coz i just kept asking him to walk walk n walk.

before i forget,
thanks deb for helping me get the little drawer!
thats very sweet..

there's honestly something wrong with my memory lately.
i just cant remember what i wanna do,
what i wanna say.

take yest for instance.
i called yj and during the call,
i told her 3 times "eh.. i forgot what i wanna tell u already.."

nvm that..
the same thing happened when i was talking to weitian.
and she asked me if i was senile.

i think so.

told pam abt it.
and she told me that when she's bathing,
she often forgets if she had shampooed her hair.
and she will be looking ard to see if there are signs of her shampooing her hair already.

erm... i think mine isnt tt serious yet.

remembered that joei told me tt he's losing memory..
shld be something like this.
n he says tt taking more ginko is helpful.

anyhow, let's get back to the last segment of the entry today.
photos from last last monday.

due to some reasons,
i met up with sam c tt monday.

since we haven seen each other for so long,
what must we do??

TAKE PHOTO.



dnot ask why the photo is blurred till such an extent.
i tot the reason is very obvious.

as for sam c...
it took me years to realise that she's actually a very nice junior.
as in i din realise tt she was tt nice till recently.
thanks girl!

same goes for gerry as well!

surprise the day.
a neoprint taken tt monday with becca.
thanks for accompanying me when u're needed.
[though i think its more like u're forced to.. but oh well....]



for some reason i love this neoprint.
coz i look so~~ napolean.

four legs good...
two legs bad..

announcement for today:
im starting school next week.
so quit asking me when is sch starting.

though joo joo has been here for like a couple of weeks,
ive yet to let him sleep with me.

didnt wanna dirty him..

but..
today shall let him slp with me.
badly need "someone" to comfort me.

damn depressed.
and perhaps only muay fan knows why..

digress abit,
im totally sun burnt.
after being under the sun for more than 4 hrs.
at the damn merlion park.

if i was over the moon on monday,
i dont know how to describe today.

over the sun??
perhaps.

everything just doesnt matter anymore.

lao gong jiu shi lao gong...

im like in so deep shit man.
its past midnight.
and i got to wake up at 4am later to meet muay fan??

OMG.

got to do last min confirmation.
and im kinda irritated abt how they treat me my lao gong.
let him take some lao po airline.
crap one leh..

anyway, tmr having lunch with godma.
finally.
hopefully desmond isnt going!!!!
heard that hes back from aus..
*sian*

whatever it is,
i better PLUNGE to go play chess with zhou gong.

sometimes in life,
people find themselves losing faith/ direction in life/ blah n shit.

when that happens,
guarantee plus chop your life is really blah n shit man.

its like if u turn left, u noe its somehow the wrong turn.
when u turn right, again its somehow the wrong turn.
obviously u cant turn back.

so, the only option left is to walk straight n jump out of the window.

honestly, what's life man?
u just keep hearing people complaining about life..
so old already, still complaining about life.

i sound damn depressed huh?
somehow this entry is like so out of place.
esp with pictures of me smiling so~~ happily plastered all over the blog.

its been so~~ long since im so~~ bloody stressed up and depressed about life.
honestly.
damn damn damn long le.

its honestly much much easier when one knows whats their goals in life.

*big big sigh*

*please dont speculate that im troubled over relationships stuff.
ive got much more stuff to fan nao over than just those.

WHAT IS FUCKING WRONG WITH ME!!!???